25: remembering snapshots (31 days of the Power of Story)

I wrote “He (God) gives us all gifts to cherish. moments that are ours alone. memories. snapshots of time well spent.in a post honoring my Dad in December of 2015. I was reminded of it today as i sat down to the prompt:capture.

Read the rest here: AND WE SPEAK.

I miss him every day.

When I see a hunched, old man walking in a store.

When I smell cigarette smoke.

When I drive by his church.

When I rub oil into my forearm that bares his memorial.

When his HEAVEN BIRTHday comes and goes.

My man and I laughed about Dad’s antics today. About my memories of him…

And I miss him.

“Snapshots of time well spent” keep him so very real in my mind. And in my heart.

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20/21: Yoda wisdom: do or do not… (31 days of the Power of Story)

The prompt for yesterday was Audience and today it is Start…I purposely didn’t blog yesterday, and since Obedience is not the easiest for me to do all the time… Here we go.

I originally titled the post, “Just Do It.” (Pep talks help. Quit rambling, woman.)

Audience…we all have one.

A platform, a space.

We also all are given MOMENTs of decision that change the course of our path. It is in those moments of decision where we either choose to step into the path God has prepared for us, or we do not.

OBEDIENCE.

Yoda got it right, “Do, or do not, there is no try.”

We obey, or we disobey.

Step or don’t.

My story goes something like this:

Middle child grows up trying to be perfect, hiding when she fails, She tries again a different way, hides when she fails. Tries to speak up, hides when she is questioned or corrected. Tries to fight, runs away when she gets battered. She learns to run when she can, and hide when she cannot. Sometimes in defiance, most times in fear.

My parents loved the best they could, how they could; yet, my timidity and fear were learned. I, like so many, am a product of my environment… the learned things became the instinctual things.

Fast forward 20+years:

I am unlearning timidity.

I am unlearning fear.

I am unlearning how I hear things.

I am learning that I do have an audience, I do have a purpose, I do have a calling!

In 2011, my discipler said, “Don’t you dare not move.” And though I stumbled MUCH those early years of my RELEARNING, I rarely do now.

Looking back, I’m aware of how that stumble-walk began:

I simply STARTED walking.

I clung to those who believed in me. I sought their reminders. I asked questions. I learned to seek confirmation in God’s WORD. I aimed to be teachable.

I sought HIS PATH and focused on His Voice. Choosing to let go of the things I COULD NOT carry on the journey.

I’m still tossing the uncarriable as I go…

  • The opinions of others.
  • The Fear of failure.
  • The Uncomfortable memories.
  • The Lack of confidence.
  • The Desire to hide.
  • The Desire to run.
  • The Desire to have an easier path.

Yet on I go. Seeking the confidence I lack at moments from those who believe in me. Trusting the ABBA is still lighting my path.

Trusting His Joy.

Daring to move!

Knowing that ALL of the things I have walked through have taught me how to walk now.

To whomever needs to hear it, I’m telling you that Obedience is easy. “Do, or Do Not. THERE IS NO TRY!”

You have an audience! You have a Gift. You have a Calling!

And most importantly, you have a Father who is walking behind you. He is telling you where your path is.

Do you hear Him?

“This is the way, walk in it!”

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fmf: STUCK!

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(start)

it feels like a theme

something i struggle to put words to

i feel it with my friends. acquaintances.

life.

somedays bad

somedays good

somedays just…no other words

well maybe curse words

but we don’t say those.

my uncle called me today…”i miss your dad”. yes, i miss him too.

rebirth.

impregnated with possibility.

anointing.

power.

am i afraid? definitely.

am i willing? ABSOLTUELY

i’ve grown so tired, so sad, so fed-up with this feeling.

it surrounds me like a fog.

heavy and tormenting.

but i know whose voice is whispering into it.

but OH i see the LIGHT up ahead…a glimmer. now brighter…

(STOP)

maybe this is a path, a rocky one that is slowly smoothing out the farther i walk upon it.

like the morning sun, shining ever brighter till the full light of day one version says.

” This is the way, walk ye in it…”

if i’m walking i’m NOT STUCK!!

Isaiah 30:19-22 (NKJV)

For the people shall dwell in Zion at Jerusalem;
You shall weep no more.
He will be very gracious to you at the sound of your cry;
When He hears it, He will answer you.
And though the Lord gives you
The bread of adversity and the water of affliction,
Yet your teachers will not be moved into a corner anymore,
But your eyes shall see your teachers.
Your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying,
“This is the way, walk in it,”
Whenever you turn to the right hand
Or whenever you turn to the left.
You will also defile the covering of your images of silver,
And the ornament of your molded images of gold.
You will throw them away as an unclean thing;
You will say to them, “Get away!”

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in which i give myself a lecture

sometimes i have this internal lecture I give myself.

today’s lecture is brought to you by Proverbs 8 and goes something like this:
not everyone will agree with everything you do. sometimes someone will say they that don’t, but most times you will assume it, true or not.

either way, YOU listen and obey Jesus!

no one else is going to obey FOR you..and your excuses don’t impress Abba. they are not “reasons” or anything else but EXCUSES.

SO, when someone says something that you Could take as negative or something that will cause you to question what God is saying to you, YOU HAVE A CHOICE.  you can:

  • Listen to that assumption and let Satan distract you from the Path, continuing to be a bound up mess.

OR

because honey, you know His voice, but you’re REALLY GOOD at getting distracted from it. You’re REALLY GOOD at fear.  so, PLEASE FOR LOVE OF PETE do us a favor and STOP IT!! Trust Abba and obey!

you’ve spent way too much of this life letting others dictate your obedience. honey, you’re more grown now. you know HIM more. you KNOW the opinions that matter and the ones that DO NOT! YOU WANT HOLY SPIRIT POWER? REACH OUT AND GRAB IT!

embrace your calling! the time is Now!  Finally… Now!


 

while this is my internal lecture maybe it’s your’s too. maybe you need to learn what i need to learn…that YOU ALWAYS HAVE CHOICES. 

  • will you listen and obey?
  • will you let God use you for that thing He has set before you?
  • will you be who you really are, or will you keep pretending that you’re someone else?
  • will you let fear dictate your path?
  • who’s voice will you listen to?
  • WILL YOU CHOOSE WISDOM OR FOLLY?

some of your Path will lead to BIG things, and other parts of your PATH will lead to seemingly small things, but it is ultimately YOUR CHOICE on whether you answer WISDOM’S call or not.

 

Wisdom’s Call

Does not wisdom call out?
    Does not understanding raise her voice?
At the highest point along the way,
    where the paths meet, she takes her stand;
 beside the gate leading into the city,
    at the entrance, she cries aloud:
“To you, O people, I call out;
    I raise my voice to all mankind.
You who are simple, gain prudence;
    you who are foolish, set your hearts on it.
Listen, for I have trustworthy things to say;
    I open my lips to speak what is right.
 My mouth speaks what is true,
    for my lips detest wickedness.
All the words of my mouth are just;
    none of them is crooked or perverse.
To the discerning all of them are right;
    they are upright to those who have found knowledge.
 Choose my instruction instead of silver,
    knowledge rather than choice gold,
for wisdom is more precious than rubies,
    and nothing you desire can compare with her.

“I, wisdom, dwell together with prudence;
    I possess knowledge and discretion.
 To fear the Lord is to hate evil;
    I hate pride and arrogance,
    evil behavior and perverse speech.
 Counsel and sound judgment are mine;
    I have insight, I have power.
 By me kings reign
    and rulers issue decrees that are just;
by me princes govern,
    and nobles—all who rule on earth.
 I love those who love me,
    and those who seek me find me.
With me are riches and honor,
    enduring wealth and prosperity.
 My fruit is better than fine gold;
    what I yield surpasses choice silver.
I walk in the way of righteousness,
    along the paths of justice,
bestowing a rich inheritance on those who love me
    and making their treasuries full.

 “The Lord brought me forth as the first of his works,
    before his deeds of old;
 I was formed long ages ago,
    at the very beginning, when the world came to be.
 When there were no watery depths, I was given birth,
    when there were no springs overflowing with water;
 before the mountains were settled in place,
    before the hills, I was given birth,
 before he made the world or its fields
    or any of the dust of the earth.
 I was there when he set the heavens in place,
    when he marked out the horizon on the face of the deep,
 when he established the clouds above
    and fixed securely the fountains of the deep,
 when he gave the sea its boundary
    so the waters would not overstep his command,
and when he marked out the foundations of the earth.
     Then I was constantly at his side.
I was filled with delight day after day,
    rejoicing always in his presence,
rejoicing in his whole world
    and delighting in mankind.

“Now then, my children, listen to me;
    blessed are those who keep my ways.
Listen to my instruction and be wise;
    do not disregard it.
 Blessed are those who listen to me,
    watching daily at my doors,
    waiting at my doorway.
 For those who find me find life
    and receive favor from the Lord.
But those who fail to find me harm themselves;
    all who hate me love death.” Proverbs 8 (NIV)