The prompt for yesterday was Audience and today it is Start…I purposely didn’t blog yesterday, and since Obedience is not the easiest for me to do all the time… Here we go.
I originally titled the post, “Just Do It.” (Pep talks help. Quit rambling, woman.)
Audience…we all have one.
A platform, a space.
We also all are given MOMENTs of decision that change the course of our path. It is in those moments of decision where we either choose to step into the path God has prepared for us, or we do not.
Yoda got it right, “Do, or do not, there is no try.”
We obey, or we disobey.
Step or don’t.
My story goes something like this:
Middle child grows up trying to be perfect, hiding when she fails, She tries again a different way, hides when she fails. Tries to speak up, hides when she is questioned or corrected. Tries to fight, runs away when she gets battered. She learns to run when she can, and hide when she cannot. Sometimes in defiance, most times in fear.
My parents loved the best they could, how they could; yet, my timidity and fear were learned. I, like so many, am a product of my environment… the learned things became the instinctual things.
Fast forward 20+years:
I am unlearning timidity.
I am unlearning fear.
I am unlearning how I hear things.
I am learning that I do have an audience, I do have a purpose, I do have a calling!
In 2011, my discipler said, “Don’t you dare not move.” And though I stumbled MUCH those early years of my RELEARNING, I rarely do now.
Looking back, I’m aware of how that stumble-walk began:
I simply STARTED walking.
I clung to those who believed in me. I sought their reminders. I asked questions. I learned to seek confirmation in God’s WORD. I aimed to be teachable.
I sought HIS PATH and focused on His Voice. Choosing to let go of the things I COULD NOT carry on the journey.
I’m still tossing the uncarriable as I go…
- The opinions of others.
- The Fear of failure.
- The Uncomfortable memories.
- The Lack of confidence.
- The Desire to hide.
- The Desire to run.
- The Desire to have an easier path.
Yet on I go. Seeking the confidence I lack at moments from those who believe in me. Trusting the ABBA is still lighting my path.
Trusting His Joy.
Daring to move!
Knowing that ALL of the things I have walked through have taught me how to walk now.
To whomever needs to hear it, I’m telling you that Obedience is easy. “Do, or Do Not. THERE IS NO TRY!”
You have an audience! You have a Gift. You have a Calling!
And most importantly, you have a Father who is walking behind you. He is telling you where your path is.
Do you hear Him?
“This is the way, walk in it!”